I didn’t get the baby…but this year is different.

As most of us know, today is Fat Tuesday.  My boss brought in King Cake and one of the other staff members had one FedEx'd in from a baker in New Orleans.  I have to admit that I had a piece of each, recorded the WW points and STILL did not get the baby.  Is the Jesus Baby in there?  I wonder.

Fat Tuesday always leads to Ash Wednesday and the beginning of Lent.  Lent has been a time of introspection for me (especially the last 12 years) preparing my heart and keeping in front of me the sacrifice of my Lord.

This year is not different. 

Thinking about my relationship with God, what prevents me from being closer to Him, what gets in the way of time bringing glory to Him? 

This year is not different.

It's only been a few weeks, but this year, for me, has been focused on continuing the simple life.  I made the commitment to the Lord to become even healthier physically, financially and spiritually in 2009.  I really want to be around for grandchildren, if He blesses.  I really  DO NOT want to be diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and High Cholesterol.  That is where Dr. Kolb said I was headed.

This year is not different.

I want to be closer to God, to hear Him more clearly, to laugh more, to love my family deeper, to appreciate every aspect of the breath He gives me.  I want to encourage my girlfriends and deepen those relationships as we find time for each other.  I want to fall more deeply in love with my husband.  I don't know if that is possible at this point, but I want our marriage to continue to glorify God.  However imperfect we are.

This year is not different.

I am still on the eve of Ash Wednesday, wondering just exactly what I could deny myself that is from this world that would bring me closer to God.  Wondering, what could I add to my life that would bring me closer to God?  I have retired from any service outside of serving my family and those cute teen girls on every other Friday night for the past 2 years now.  I am still recovering from serving in vain.

This year is not different.

I am desperate for a revival of my heart.  I am desperate for more of God.  I desire to make a difference to those around me and make an impact on my family for His glory.  

This year is not different.

I am a sinner.  I am wretched.  Left to my own will, I would be bankrupt, unstable and unbelievably selfish.

This year is different.

I am heading into the season of Lent fully aware of what is TRULY important in this life.  My relationship with God.  My relationship with my husband.  My relationship with my children.  My relationship with my family.  My relationship with His people.

This year is different.

I am headed into this season of Lent deciding to continue to focus on His call for me.

FOCUS ON ME CHILD.  NOT MAN.  FOCUS ON YOUR PRIMARY MINISTRY.

This year is different.

I am not giving up anything.  I am renewing my commitment to Christ to remain focused on Him, giving Him my all and not moving unless He says so.

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